The Genre that You Do Not Even Remember the Name

"You'll gonna love this music."

"Music? Did you mean song?"

"No. Music. Literally. I can't stand any of the new songs nowadays."

"Wait. What? Really? What kind of music then?"

"Just listen. Well it's sorta like clubbing music, but it isn't. Frankly, I love any lyricless song recently."

"Well, well, I heard it and I can't love it like you do."

"Woah, woah, yesterday you said you love folk music but you don't like this kind of genre?"

"Yup."

"But both of them are nearly the same, for my ears."

"They're different. Totally. That music and song make me relax and enjoying the flow of time. And yours? Well, I'm not sure what it really is."

"You have to listen to the branch of this genre then, chill one."

"Not now, not now. Another time will do."

Hidden Message Response

Uncertainty could be a flavor of world excitement, but also a tormentor that potentially mess up the feeling and sanity. I sent you those secret codes. However, I have no idea whether you already read it or not. And if you have, what did you do after realizing the secret code's meaning? Well, the major disadvantage of sending a message using covert method is the unknown or irrelevant response. In my opinion, there is should be an agreement of the code type and how to decipher it. Unfortunately, the solution unable to implement for a secret admirer that send the message to his/her crush.

I do not know how to react nor compose the reply to your message if you really read them. Perhaps you better did not read at all. 

If You're Good at Something, ...

"If you are good at something, never do it for free." A notorious quote from the movie that turned an ignorant who did not put any interest in major trend into a movie lover. Movie athlete might be more relevant since this person really fond of the movie marathon.

The question is, do you agree with that quote? Personally, I found this quote is too materialistic and money oriented, isn't it? On the other hand, if we use business perspective, this quotation fit perfectly. Monetizing our most excel skill is easier said than done, yet this quote suggests us to make a master plan for ensuring people to use our products/services and pay for them. Do not ask me how because I can not figure it out too. I only share my own perspective and hopefully in the not-too-distant future I could be paid for it. Who knows?

A Message for You

I love everything that related to mystery or crime genres. Movies, novels, or riddles which contain those contents will surely captivate me. From that sources, I learn few tricks and secret codes. However, that code would be useless if no one could grasp the meaning. Therefore, I told some people to decipher a code. Afterward, I wrote a secret code in my poem for a special occasion which only a few people can read and understood the private message. And this code is posted for you, only for you (if you remember how to solve this easy piece, though).

HIOD MIO EKUE PMR YLYH AUG COUO IPA AVKY DUS NEIS IAM TYNA RSE

One Path Journey - 3

"I was a... afraid to make a single sound
Afraid I would never find a way out
Afraid I'd never be found
I don't wanna' go another round
An angry man's power will shut you up
Trip wires fill this house with tip toed love"

I do nothing and I did nothing either. Locked inside a chamber, the comfort zone, while the world doing the regular basis. Fear has consumed me. A wise man once told me that when you are afraid of jumping, then jump. That feeling is the signal to do anything I afraid of and doing nothing would make me stuck in the same place for an indefinite amount of time. I am afraid. Very afraid. 

"Hate your appearance, did you struggle to find your place in this world?
And the pain spawns all the anger on"

As the consequence of stuck stage, apparently, a new question appears. Do I really have a place in this world? Or I am just nobody who was created to do nothing important at all? Who will never be recognized by the world? So, why did I have to be created anyway?

"And everything you're scared to say don't be afraid to say no more
From this day forward, just let them a-holes talk,
Take it with a grain of salt and eat their fuckin' faces off"

It is been too long for a depression state, which devoured all my strength and courage. I am fed up with this situation: sleep and eat all day long, lifeless, and monotone daily cycle. My time is up, I have to accept this defeat and learn to stand up.

"Run out of excuses for everyone
So here I am and I will not run
Guts over fear (the time is near)
Guts over fear (I shed a tear)"

I have used every possible defense to rationalize my former action. Blame, excuse, and justification. I did everything to protect my pride and cover my fear. Such a vain attempt, I think. A useless phase of a journey, yet it gave me enough time to contemplate and rearrange future plan. Will I encounter the similar situation? I don't know. It's time to jump.

* (One path journey, a three-post-life story, is inspired by Eminem ft Sia "Guts Over Fear")

A Great - Lovely - Captivating but Not-Western Movie

Earlier on this day, I watched a movie - yes the movie marathon program still running - and I was dazzled. The movie title will be kept secret since this blog mainly discusses the daily activity of an insignificant life, not a movie review. In brief, if you prefer a dark cunning yet full of familial affection thriller crime movie, this Bollywood masterpiece is recommended to watch.

Did I say Bollywood? Yes, you are not mistaken. At first, I always thought that Bollywood movies only have one big special formula. Two individuals, fallen in love, happy (which followed by the unnecessary music video and second rate happy dancer on the background), the problem occurs, sad (which often followed with the lightning strike sound effects and non-essential music video, again), a situation that strengthens the love or principal value happened, the protagonists give a maximum effort, the problems solved, and finally live happily ever after. Wow, such a long statement, isn't it?Note this, knowing that formula saves me from disappointment because it made me always put the not-too-high expectation on Bollywood movies. 

However, not on this one. The movie that revolves around a murder case utterly blew my mind. One side of the party creates the horror of interrogation to seek the truth, whereas the other establishes the solid alibi to protect themselves. However, both of them have the similar principal value: family. Two hours and a half spent and I did not aware until the movie ended. The rollercoaster flows with a strong foundation of the characters make every second count, a rare situation when I watch a Bollywood movie. The stigma of a lack tension, absence suspense, but brimming with melodramatic romance broke down. The movie gives me a new Indian movie perspective. After the movie finished, I still did not believe that I actually love it. Therefore, I checked Google and found out that this movie was rated 8.7 on IMDB! I have a decent judgement on the movie's quality, after all.

Truthfully, I wish I could write more about this special movie but I want to continue my movie marathon program. I might see many great films that I have never know before, right? Thank you and see you.

After Movie Thoughts

I spent over twenty-four hours in the last few days just to watch movies. Nonstop. And I couldn't be happier since I already have them stockpiled in the laptop for weeks. At last, now I can move them to the better place: external hard disk. 

My imagination roams free because of those movies. These products of art imbue my brain which affects the thinking system. It kept changing pole to pole. However, I ever heard about a bestseller worldwide book that changed the perspectives of millions, "Whatever you think, think the opposite".

Here, the book emphasized that everyone has an original thinking, and not good enough unless they switch it to the opposite. Basically, I have to think the opposite of my thought. At the same moment, I do not understand my mind whether it thinks about the normal one or the opposite? If a normal one, then everything will be more straightforward. I only have to change it to the opposite. Yet, after I hold the opposite, should I consider the opposite of the opposite which leads to the original idea? Meanwhile, the problem arises when the first is an opposite. What else must I do? I already think the opposite, still, the basic principle of the book ask me to think the opposite which refers to the normal one. Or do I have to think nothing? Shut it like a TV that turned off by pulling the electricity cable out?

My honest opinion, both the movies and book worth to watch/read on their own, not combined. Wait a minute, is that the first thought? So would it be better if converted to the opposite: they are terrible?

Paradox.

One Path Journey - 2

"Sometimes I feel like all I ever do is
Find different ways to word the same, old song
Ever since I came along
From the day the song called "Hi, my Name Is" dropped
Started thinkin' my name was fault
Cause any time things went wrong
I was the one who they would blame it on"

Do not victimize yourself, you may advise. But the truth is I am being victimized by none other than myself. Since I lost my path, I sit on the remaining path and keep imputing my previous choice. Everything went wrong after I choose to continue my journey, it could be better if I stayed in my dark but safe cave.  

"No wonder I had to unlearn everything my brain was taught
Do I really belong in this game? I pondered
I just wanna' play my part, should I make waves or not?
So back and forth in my brain, the tug-o-war wages on"

Just go on. Keep fighting. The voices inside my head arguing, proposing unrealistic imagination related to the past that already happened. What is the purpose of this journey? Is there anything good in the end of my adventure? Or will I always be an insignificant individual that no one ever catch a glimpse of me even though I already tried the best?

"I don't wanna' seem ungrateful or disrespect the artform I was raised upon
But sometimes you gotta' take a loss
And have people rub it in your face before you get made pissed off"
The real deal my head keep enquire is that really true that I choose this journey. It could be destined but I just never realize, which leads to the final conclusion: I do not need to strive, since every effort is meaningless to change the ultimate ending. After a long time I spent doing nothing in front of this obstruction, I am grateful of this journey. I found the gratitude concept slightly before I decide to isolate myself on this path until the infinity pick me up. Yes I am thankful for everything that happened in my life. Up and down in the path is a normal thing, but I never found one in my always-elevated-pathway. This is the first remarkable drop and I am not ready to face one. Yes, this is my defeat.

One Path Journey - 1

"Feels like a close, it's coming to
Fuck am I gonna do?
It's too late to start over
This is the only thing I, thing I know"
Here I am. At the peak of a structure. I climbed all the way to this place and I can not go back since there is only one path provided in this journey. Turning back would only take me to the starting point, nothingness. The nihility which called zero in another locution. In this journey, an expedition to seek infinity, turning back means completely fail. Moreover, the train of time would not allow that act.

However, the trail in front of me is gone somehow and nothing left except a dark deep ravine and gorge. The one-path-journey only gives two choices: jump to continue the journey or do nothing until the last train of time picks me up and take me to the endlessness station. Starting over is not a choice since this way is the only thing I know about my path. Should I jump? But what is waiting at the bottom of this cliff; or is it a bottomless pit and limitless drop? I am scared.

A Research Proposal

The content of a good research proposal is of paramount importance, but the structure and presentation are important factors in making your proposal accessible to reviewers. You should carefully follow the funder’s suggested guidelines for structuring your proposal. If you are not given much structural guidance you should consider including the following sections in your proposal:

• Title and abstract.
• Introduction (background information) and literature review. Demonstrate that your research will make a worthy contribution to an existing body of literature, and that it has not been done before. Research proposals are often of limited length so only choose key research articles in your field. You should grab the reader’s attention by keeping your writing succinct and relevant.
• Statement of hypotheses and/or research questions. What key areas of research will your proposal test (hypotheses) or address (research questions)?
• Aim and objectives. These must be justified. Consider the requirements of your funding body – are you meeting these and not just addressing your own intellectual curiosity? The funder’s website usually provides the criteria against which your proposal will be judged.
• Methodology. You should justify the methodology you intend to use, and if space permits you could explain what alternatives you disregarded (this demonstrates that you have considered alternative approaches). You need to explain why the methodology you have chosen is the most appropriate means of addressing your research questions.
• Ethical considerations. Many funders will explicitly ask you to consider the ethical implications of your research; if not then you should still demonstrate that you have considered them (particularly if your research involves people or animals).
• Resources required. This section is particularly important if you have been asked to quantify any potential expenditure.
• Proposals for the dissemination of research findings and expected outputs (e.g. journal articles). Be aware of your funder’s requirements for how any research outputs should be disseminated.
• Summary. If appropriate (check the guidelines) a summary could be included – it is not unusual, for example, for a funder to ask for a summary of the proposal addressed to a lay audience.

Originally taken from: 

http://www2.hull.ac.uk/lli/skills_team/supportingresearch/research_proposals.aspx

N vs W

"I need a new phone," she said.

"What for? You already have one."

"The camera. I need it to bolster up the quality of my work."

Well, she's not working in documentation or advertising division, yet I understand that a better camera will significantly help her in event organization, "okay let's find one."

"I think this phone has enough feature that fit with your wish at the low price."

"Yeah, but its RAM only 1gb, my sister said that I need at least 2."

"Well, that one will do then."

"Naah, the price exceed my budget."

"I'll lend you mine."

"No need, let's find another one."

I sighed and followed her footsteps to another counter.

First of all, I really understand that sometimes we need something to enhance our work quality, in this case: phone. NEED. However, even though the specifications has fulfilled our need we still want more, at the same price. WANT.

Need and want could be a big problem when they have a big gap between them. Das sein das sollen, the difference among these two create the problem. Still, it is hard to distinguish need and want in some occasion. As long as I know, need is something that will be sustained and useful in the long term. On the other hand, want refers to something instant that will satisfy our prestige, status, or greed. 

These topics need a further assessment to develop our understanding. However, the final conclusion at this moment is "need is better than want".

At this moment, I am really grateful because of you. Because you are reading this. Thanks to you.