Just Say Whatever You Wanted To Say

It might seem like a foolish in your eyes

but I would like to do what my heart wants

We can't control people's comment. Any thing that we do will trigger people's comment. Anything. Sometimes it's a good suggestion, sometimes it's unbearable. But when we heard the comment most of the time it is negative. It's okay, that's alright. Have you heard the story about father, son, and the donkey? People will comment on everything we do. 

We have very limited amount of energy, so we should mantain our activity. In the end, we have to choose which activity that we'll execute. Whether to defend ourselves from the badmouthing, or to improve our potential. Why bother spending the time to defend when we have the chance to ignore it? The amount of energy for defending ourselves is equal with the energy for improving our skills. So just walk away and ignore them.

I did that most of the time, except when the one comment is someone that close to me. Or that someone capable in that area, not just people watching. Or the one that comment is not someone but everyone. Then i'll stop myself, look inside and analyze what's wrong. It could be the way to improve myself better.

Everybody may say that what I did is useless, meaningless, or foolish or whatever they'll say. Its not a problem. I do what i want, and i'll get everything that i want. Period.

*I understand that this is a little bit hard to understand because of the language. Im improving myself, so feel free to correct and give a suggestion for me :)

Just Listen for the First Try

I want you to listen until the end

Even though it won't make us together...

Everyone has an idea or thought about anything that happened in this world, and i do too. A group of people may have different opinion even though they discuss the same thing. Even for the exactly same thing. Too many paradigm, too many perspectives, too many distracting factors. We talked about the personal thing, about the past, about the future. Too many differences, yet small similiarities.

Few similiarities among us? I couldn't care less. This thing worked well because of the difference of ours, right? It last for more than five hundred days. Why five hundred? Well maybe i'm inspired a bit from 500 days of summer, one of my favorite film. In the end, parting ways is unavoidable.

Is it unavoidable? Yes. But to be honest, no. It is avoidable. Either we don't want to avoid it or we put too much trust on our ego. Just to protect ourselves. Just to avoid more scar that come from the fact. After all, most of us prefer the beautiful lie than painful truth.

Last but not least, i tried to tell you something. I want you to listen until the end, even though it won't make us together for now. Actually you don't need to listen if you don't wanna. But i'll talk about it for sure, though the one is listening is not the others but myself. I'm fine, i'm perfectly fine. I'll just do anything secretly. It's all about the-best-i've-ever had, you, and me.

*Note : I just wanna write something in English to improve my skill, and fell free to make a suggestion for me.

**Note 2 : No, it's not about the feeling. I've got the inspiration from a song. Anyway Note 3 is a lie.

***Note 3 : It talked about someone's feeling, actually. Anyway Note 2 is a lie. 

Si Pasif Belajar Aktif

"...dan percaya nggak percaya, jarang sekali ada hal yang bisa berubah *cling* dengan sekejap. Ada tahapan dan prosesnya dulu."

Entah teori dari bangsa ataupun perspektif apa. Asal muasalnya pun tak bisa dipertanggungjawabkan. Tetapi, saya percaya bahwa kegiatan berbahasa memiliki empat dimensi utama yang menunjangnya. Membaca. Mendengarkan. Menulis. Berbicara. Satu hingga empat. Pendapat oleh siapa, entah...saya percaya saja. Saya percaya adanya empat dimensi itu karena mengalaminya sendiri ketika belajar bahasa.

Bahasa yang saya maksud sebenarnya bukan bahasa asing, meskipun mungkin dapat berlaku pula untuk bahasa-bahasa itu. Akan tetapi dalam hal ini, bahasa tersebut adalah Bahasa Indonesia. "Ayo berbahasa dengan baik dan benar", banyak yang mengkampanyekan slogan seperti itu. Oke, silahkan. Tapi bahasa yang baik dan benar itu menurut siapa? Karena tidak ada "baik dan benar" yang mutlak bagi sebuah bahasa, bukan?

Menggelikan. Banyak pihak mencekoki generasi muda dengan dimensi satu dengan porsi paling banyak diikuti dengan dimensi dua tiga empat. Apa gunanya? Memang sumber daya dan informasi yang ada memang menunjang urutan itu, namun apa efektif? Kalau dipikir-pikir, satu dan dua itu cenderung pasif sedangkan tiga dan empat merupakan proses aktif. Bagaimana mungkin seseorang disulap menjadi aktif berbahasa dengan baik dan benar apabila dicekoki dengan hal-hal pasif?Menggelikan. 

Berdasarkan pengalaman, seseorang lihai berbahasa apabila memiliki porsi dengan urutan empat tiga dua satu. Sedangkan proses belajar apabila dikaitkan dengan teori psikologi cenderung ke arah dua empat satu tiga. Sebuah hal aneh jika ada pihak yang memaksakan pendapat dengan urutan kaku satu dua tiga empat.

Terlepas dari berbagai fenomena di atas, saya pribadi ingin berubah menjadi aktif setelah sekian lama hanya pasif. Berubah produktif dari yang dulunya konsumtif akan karya bahasa. Oleh karena itu saya belajar menulis dan berbicara sedikit demi sedikit. Proses pasif perlu, tetapi porsinya harus proporsional. Proporsional tak berarti sama rata, tetapi sesuai dengan kebutuhan. Tulisan saya jelek? Cara bicara saya belepotan? Gak peduli. Toh cepat atau lambat saya akan menghadapinya. Karena tidak semua hal bisa tiba-tiba "jadi" secara instan. Proses akan membuatnya jauh lebih lezat.