Nothing's ever what we expect
But they keep asking we're going next
All we're chasing is the sunset
Got my mind on you... (R. Schulz - Sun Goes Down)
And, voila. The sacred fourth year. The time we, senior students, ought be graduate. But i have not...yet. Hopefully. My friends have graduated, join their new unique world, do many new things, or maybe travel into the new place. And here i am. Just doing nothing and trying to find funny videos on youtube.
Here we are in 2015. But back in 2011 when we just a high school graduated, when we just entered this sacred place and knew that we'll "trapped" for 4 year more or less, we had some expectation. Wheter it's about the subjet, organization, lecturer, relationship or maybe project that'll make us some money. I believe we all have the expectation at first.
Well now, are the expectations meet the reality? Its subjective. It could be pleasing or dissapointing. It could be better or worse. It could be fascinating or deppresing. Whether you realize it or not, after our expectation meet the reality we unconsciously make a new expectations. We are born to expect something, so it's just natural.
I have not graduated yet. My expectation doesn't meet the reality. It's fine for me because i know i spent my time to develop myself. But the others don't feel the same. They have expectations on me, they want me to keep moving, to achieving something new. They keep asking what'll i do after this. They asking and expecting continuously without provide any help. Well if i reconsider, they give "motivation" in their own way. Advice, suggestion, warning, anything. "But have you experienced and survived this when you're on my shoes?" i wanna go and ask them, let them think twice before cornered me in such a situation.
I personally know my own target and my ability. I have my own way to achieve something. Call this excuse but thats the truth. Its okay to motivate us, but please dont demand anything. Because sooner or later the expectation will meet the reality as the time passed by, as the sun goes down.
* I apologize for the language, i tried to learn it bit by bit
* Dedicated for "the watchers" that didn't know a thing but keep comment everything